Kirra's First Day of School. 2-3-11 - All about KIRRA day for once!!!! ;-) My doll.

 Not sure when this picture was taken.  But not long ago she was my baby.  I think around Feb. 2010.

 Kirra's first day of school.  Loved it.  A kid across from her (not shown) screaming bloody murder cause her Dad had to leave.  Kirra looks at me and says "baby cry."  I said she looks five you better watch what you say Kirra... =)

 My baby on her special whole milk and pedisure only diet.  The cook knows her and ordered her her own gallon of whole milk.  That's my way of doing things I guess.  We bring in our own pedisure.  Her and sissy are addicted.

 She loved the play kitchen in the "cafe" area.

 She kept saying Kirra's, Kirra's, Kirra's....  Someday Kirra, someday.

 Only took a couple of photos in the classroom.

 All the kids were so cute.

 Found Baili in the tube fully dressed.  She must of flipped in.  This is a girl who only crawls!

Silly girl.

Lately life has been very hard with Baili.  We have a lot of issues and preemie stuff and surgeries and no answers.  The list goes on and on.  It has been tearful, hateful to the doctors by me, and VERY hard lately.  If your child can poop, feel lucky.  If your child eats well and can gain at least an ounce a month, feel lucky.  If your child doesn't go to the hospital weekly, feel lucky.  If your child has less than 20 doctors, feel lucky.  If your child has less than 6 therapies a week, feel lucky.  I am not saying all this to be depressing.  Just reality.  We pray for Baili everyday but it is still extremely hard especially when I have her twin to tend to and to work 60 hours a week.  We keep trucking and praying just like Jerry Garcia would.  Don't get the wrong idea Baili is a love bug and a happy happy baby.  I am just stressed to the max.  It is very hard to juggle so many things at once.  I just try to take it one day at a time.  I am only one person.  She will be admitted to the hospital until further notice pretty soon, and I am so sad for that.

So did I take a lot of pictures of Kirra.  Yes I did.  I have the right to be happy even if it was just for a morning.  I have the right to be happy and "picture happy" that Kirra is doing so well.  This is why I took so many pictures of my Kirra.  She is above her average age.  A social butterfly.  LOVES SCHOOL.  Wouldn't leave after a ten hour day at school.  She loved it.  Made me feel better...Kirra finally has two days a week all about KIRRA RUTHI IDEKER.  She needs this curriculum and socializing to grow and for her development.  It was a happy first day.  Everyone calls her a doll at school and thinks she looks like a doll.  She is talkative, happy, social, and loving life at school, home, where ever she is.  It is great.  Life is easy with Kirra.  It just is and with that it gives me peace.

With Love,
The Mama of Twin Angel Dolls