The LOVE they have for each other. :)

Mommies Blog Today:

I have grown so deeply and completely in love with both my girls for the past 28 months or so.... They are almost 21 months now and even when in my womb- the love and connection started.

I am so grateful to feel this for them. And it's amazing to me that I can feel this love for Baili, and at the same time, feel my love for Kirra, too. And still be whole. Someone told me once that I would love them both intensely, and I would love them equally, but I would love them differently. That didn't make sense to me then, but I get it now. The love I have for both of them is so overwhelming; it almost takes my breath away, but somehow (I can't begin to explain it) I'm able to distinguish between the two. It's as if I love one with one part of me and one with the other, yet I love both of them as one whole person.

That's the best way I can put it into words.

Someday when you two can read this.... You may someday understand how deeply in love I am with both of you equally. You make me look at life in a whole new way. You make me want to be a better person. I love you both more than life and would take my life any day, to save one of you.

I can't say that for many, but for my girls, I would give my life in an instant. I now get it when my Mom would do anything for me. If I didn't like my shoes she'd give me hers. Literally, I would say no thanks, LOL. Mom, I now get it. I wish she could of lived to meet her first Grandchildren. I know she would be SO IN LOVE. For now we have her as my children's guardian angel.

I love you two more than anything. I hope you get the delight to have babies one day and children. Possibly twins - ha what am I saying - you have no choice! One of you will have twins, you don't have the chance not to. It's a genetic family female thing! I hope you both get the delight for this awesome feeling. It is undescribeable until it happens. :-)

Same with many things in life, you don't get it until you have to go through it. This is with everything, special needs child, birth, being a Mommy, having twins, you only really get it if you have gone through it. I hope one day my children get this undescribeable love one day.

Kirra is Baili's Mom at times or she thinks she is. It is so funny. Everyone tells me oh they will fight, and yell, pull hair, toys, ect. My twins have never fought. I know sounds crazy. It is true. They are only 21 months and the time will come. I know. Kirra is SO CARING for her sister. Like she was born to care for Baili its having her learn empathy. Some say children under three don't understand empathy or can't give it. I disagree. She has empathy for her sister and this helps her become a healthy good individual for our society. If Baili cries she goes up those stairs in seconds and yells, "Baba I com" or "sissy I com" or "BaBa BaBa" and she goes straight to where Baili is and comforts her. She talks to Baili and I hear nothing, no more crying, just them talking. They really love each other so much and for that I am greatful. They really have a bond that I have never seen. Kirra gets mad at me plenty but never, never Baili. Kisses and hugs her all day long and they talk. They truly share the same soul. :)

I ask for Kisses I only get them when they want to give them to me. For each other always no hesitation when I ask them to kiss or hug each other. So funny.

Love,
Mommy